They say when one door closes another one opens, I’m really grateful to all the people who had been over the years there for me, the people who had keep me intact and going when I should have had exploded, to those who know me are aware my life journey hasn’t been an easy one. I have tried my best to pay back show appreciation to those who had sacrificed their time and resources on me until to this day. But sometimes in life we need to accept that at times things are not meant for us, we at times try to be what we were not meant to be.
Those of you who follow my life know how brilliant a person I’m , I have all the qualities to be ideal leader in my community, I’m a responsible human being despite all I have achieved the people some of whom respected public figures not even one day I had been dragged into a nasty scandal, not even one day I had been angry at someone no matter how they sin me. I have done my party in moving my community forward encouraging other young people to be positive in life even when the going is tough, with every step taken the gap is being closed. Today I sat down and look back and wish I could have done more but still looking back at the age I was when I was doing whatever I did to other young people in my community my eyes are filled with tears of pride.
For me life is all about having that positive energy believing in the impossible, listening less to doubters and following your instincts and what you believe it can be accomplished because not all of can climb mount Everest, If Simon can’t climb Everest and you feel you can he must feel because he has failed to so you will but if you listen to him not your instincts you will be a static of a failures as well.
As days get closer to my 22 birthday I sometimes realize how an extraordinary person had been and still I’m today it will be understatement not to mention that I’m a very different person from most of age -mates , I dream under conditions were I should not have had at the same place and fulfilled those dreams in very small space of time, to dream is free but to walk and accomplish the dream is never easy it takes being a man.
I have over the years adopted a lifestyle where by I believe facing difficulties in life comes with a very handsome reward, facing difficulties in my life I can today say It had been a blessing in disguise , it’s something that motivates me . This month I will be turning 22 and a grown up man isn’t so? And a grown up man doesn’t wait for other people be relatives or friends to find solutions to his problems, at this age a real man doesn’t really like people interfering into his own life. At 22 it’s when you stop listening to people making noises about what best for you and make a decision and move that direction, it doesn’t matter what you choose as long you know its best and it will work for you. I personally think time have came for me to go it my way in this life without anyone suggesting what to do with my life. I have learned over the years that people when you are smart enough they will always try influence you do what they think is best but you don’t see as such and thus we end up making mistakes by wanting to impress and do something which we would not have gotten ourselves into in the first place. It must be noted that people sometimes get involved in our lives with good and bad agendas, we have seen over and over that people use others to achieve their goals, it’s therefore a matter of being careful.
People have different talents and at times God chooses for us who he wants us to be and we can not go against that because when we do thus when things don’t work out for us, I have personally always wondered to why I can move a mountain in plan B and never really proceed in plan A when I try force things on plan A they work for a certain period of time before something very serious comes up to halt that progress but when I’m at plan B all seem to be doing it for itself naturally with me putting 120% effort .
I know that God has a special plan for me to follow but had been ignoring because I had always wanted to accomplish what everyone wished was best for me, I tried follow that route and sadly it never really bear fruit because I was forcing things that were not meant for me I wanted to be someone who I’m not meant to be .
Looking back at my accomplishments over the years only someone who pretend to know me would call me a failure and such people are those who talk to me when they hear something good had happened with me and place themselves in a situation advise me but I’m not foolish I take everyone’s advise and only a few doesn’t end up in the dust bin. I was born a success but had been ignoring the part of me that is really me, the path that would had seen me succeed with distinction. I have now found self and the really purpose I’m in this world , lots of us out there are doing things we should not be doing , lots of us don’t know our purpose in this world even if we do know we doubt ourselves and what a shame.
I’m not writing this because I’m regretting I have had a wonderful life already although I’m only 22 when I put down my life I could well half qualify to go and retire in a farm and look after my livestock, the knowledge and my experiences over the years no one can take that from me, I know life than when I could when I’m to be 55, I’m proud that I have played my part in life changing charitable causes and have inspired a number of young people from different walks of life that nothing is impossible in this life no matter your back ground, gender or race most importantly I played a positive part in society at an age when I would had done lots negative things that affects society.
I’m happy in life today because I believe everything that had happened to me, my decisions over the years all they was purpose behind them and I never look back feeling sorry for myself or with any regret. Although I’m not where I wish to be in life but at-least have to appreciate the fact that I’m in the right direction and have the skill to climb any mountain in life. Besides I have more to be proud of than feel sorry for myself I accomplished whatever I did when odds were heavily against me and did it under the same situation many times and this year is no different I look forward to accomplish my life target under hash conditions and when I do the smile on my face is much bigger because there is no victory as sweet as when odds are heavily against you.
We as people are different some come from well off family, some from average families, others from very poor families therefore it might be easy for some difficult some to accomplish what would seem a easy dream, some dream and just walk the dream as strolling in the park while other have to work extremely hard for years just to accomplish the same. When you have no proper family support structure you dream under hash conditions and such matured and learned me that there is no easy dream that is easy or can be accomplished just like that one has to suffer to achieve anything in this life, if you homophobic to struggling then you have no life those who are prepared to make it in this life are prepared to suffer and take risks. The struggle is even much better for you when you someone or people who cheer and pick you up when you fall because as you grow up in life you appreciate that some people don’t have that privileged from the young age, when they were down they had to cheer themselves up, when they fell they had to pick themselves up
2014 is a year when I do what I think It’s best for me and my life, forget about what people think of me or what I should be or become, I know my capabilities and my plan B’s in life . We tend to make mistakes by thinking that what everyone expect us to be it’s really what we are meant to be in this life. No success is everywhere, but when we try force things we may sure believe success is monopolized somehow and only those who have the right qualifications are guaranteed success in life.
Many of us wonder how some people seem to succeed beyond imagination so effortlessly and painless to most of us, they don’t try force things, they do things according to what is God given to them, they choose the direction for themselves that is already paved rather than a rough one they must negotiate slowly but painfully.
We can deny this but it’s the truth, all of us were born to excel effortlessly in a certain field of work, some people are born business minded and we watch them succeed effortlessly in that, while others try to copy-cat such person and fail dismally. Everyone has his or her talent and it’s very important to know what you are best at and if you do what you are best at even if it doesn’t pay you good for now but promise you will live a very happy life and in the near future be very wealth, the example is a Somali man selling different kind of stuff he can make a R20 profit a day for months but come after a year he will be making R 7000 a day from the same thing, he can’t give up because he knows selling it’s where his talent is and come after five years he will be a millionaire then thus when some of us who doesn’t understand honoring your God given talent will start saying no, one can succeed from selling sweets he was selling drugs, WHAT DRUGS just in your mind because you are foolish.